Almine’s Transfiguration
In January 2004, I went into seclusion. On the 5th, I had visionary experiences as powerful as those experienced during my entry into God-consciousness. The walls of my house became transparent, the experience growing until it encompassed all space and time. It turned into the vastness that Melchizedek had referred to as the ‘Null’; the presence of the Infinite. For an incalculable amount of time I received vast bodies of information that seemed to be assimilated instantaneously.
I saw the destiny of humankind – the ultimate creation that carries the fate of the cosmos. I understood how the sub-personalities of humans were the key to the successful completion of the future and elimination of much unnecessary suffering. Overwhelming bliss flooded my being, which became borderless and vast. Then came an experience that can only be described as ‘falling out of heaven’.
I felt myself plunging into a demonic darkness, terrifying beyond description. I had never experienced anything remotely like this oppressive darkness. The sheer weight of the blackness was suffocating and I yearned with all my heart to be free of it. Then as suddenly as it had come, the darkness receded, leaving behind crushing grief.
The darkness was the darkness of the unknown portions of the Infinite’s being. Since I was all things, this darkness was also mine. When it left, it felt as though a piece of me was being torn away and a great sense of loss and agony overwhelmed me. Now, I understood the need for the Infinite to reclaim its unknown pieces. I realized that the Christ had undergone a similar event in the Garden of Gethsemane. Something within me shattered.
I lay in a state of shock, trembling and cold, hugging my knees in a fetal position. For what seemed like hours, I tried to make sense of the pain and loss I still felt. I could see that that which had shattered was the fields around my body – they had split into three parts. I had known for some time the work I was doing was that of a Nagual Shaman, or Toltec Shaman seer whose reason for existence is to lead others to freedom.
My approach, however, was so unique that I hesitated to call myself a Nagual Shaman. I had extreme caution in giving myself any labels since labels trap our growth. It became crystal clear during this transfiguration that I am a three-pronged Nagual Shaman whose destiny is and always has been to lead others to freedom from illusion. I could see why my Toltec Shaman training had come through telepathy: I wouldn’t be told what seers could or couldn’t know; I would, as a result, solve mysteries that had eluded Toltec seers for eons.
Now I could see the purpose of the preceding months of seeming insanity: the emotional fields around the body spin clockwise and the mental fields spin counter-clockwise (called the Merkaba). When a strong emotion becomes an obsession and is contrary to the level of perception, it sets up a vortex within the luminous cocoon (the cocoon is the seven bodies of man, ranging from the physical to the spirit body, stacked within each other like Russian dolls) that cracks it, thereby transfiguring the fields.
As suddenly as it had emerged, the obsessiveness disappeared. Life changed dramatically after this transfiguration. I was catapulted into the third and final stage of the evolution of man’s awareness, that of the Ascended Master. My tears flowed frequently during the first three months of 2004 as compassion moved me deeply. It was impossible to look at a flower, a hawk circling above or the beautiful face of a child without crying for joy. I did not understand that the silent flooding of love was the result of the now complete mental silence, until I was shown in a dream.
The silence within my mind before the transfiguration was there virtually all the time, but I had to leave the silence when relating to another or analyzing or deducing a course of action. The silence now became all-encompassing, swallowing every thought and emotion, even when lecturing or writing. In the silence of the mind, the heart could fully open.
In this new stage many changes occurred. The physical purification had stopped overnight. If I allowed too long a gap between sentences, I would be encompassed by the silence and forget that I was speaking at all. As a result, I spoke rapidly so that I would not get lost in the silence. It was impossible to undertake any action not in accordance with the blueprint of my life as designed by my higher self. If I tried to leave the house when I wasn’t supposed to, I could not raise my hand to open the door.
Any resistance to life produced the sensation of being in a vortex of swirling energy.
After a week of training two Canadian sisters, they asked me out to dinner. I wanted to accept but couldn’t make my mouth say, “Yes”. I finally had to say, “I don’t know why, but I’m unable to say ‘Yes’.” As it turned out, the two of them had incredibly visionary experiences on the beach that they were able to capture on film. I was delayed in traffic for two hours. If I had said, ‘Yes’, they would have had to interrupt their beautiful experience and wait for me in vain.
In the previous stage of God-consciousness, I could see in all directions, possible futures as well as the past. Now all I could see clearly was my next step. Before going to bed one night, I wondered how best to surrender to this new stage of development. I dreamt that the ceiling of my house was leaking and the rain was breaking it down more and more. Immediately before waking, I said to myself, “I must have the ceiling repaired”, but I heard the answer: “Just allow the process of life to break down your previous limitations”.
Excerpted from Journey to the Heart of God